Why this is a good ending?
[let me stop here to fully admit that for two adults in our forties, we both sound like a couple of middle school idiots… we really do. there’s no getting around that. at all.]
It’s a really good ending not because of what was said, but because of what happened next.
Had this been (I don’t know) 2 years, a year ago, I would have:
-raged for about an hour
-yelled the next warm body and sent a bunch of howlers to him about how an awful person he was for sending that kind of reply.
-go on for days about how he was going to get away with what he did to me.
But last night, when this exchange happened I did the following:
-raged for about 5-10 minutes (it was actually between status pings on my ticketing system which is set on the quarter hour)
-read the email again and thought about if and how I would respond. There were many false starts and rewrites of the email.
-prayed over it and rewrote the email again
And the next day:
-I talked to my husband about it and he held me a while
-Talked to MK for a perspective check
-Wrote this article
In other words, It’s a good ending because instead of raging alone, I opened up and let others in. I didn’t stay angry, I didn’t go emo.
I have peace.
And not peace through forcing silence from others, but peace through going through the fire and coming through it with a fresh perspective and a pretty solid article.
Thanks be to God.